I fear that I will either implode or explode. The pressure is too high, the temperature too hot and the space to confining. This is why so many people disregard the benefits of a long-term relationship; they cease being considered in a sensual regard and become solely regarded as a resource (bread winner, valet, maid, therapist or parent).
Minding the detriments of time I know that this vigor won't last forever, so why do I choose to squander this gift? Because you're in love stupid! But why does she get SO defensive if I ever even remotely try to broach this subject? Because she feels criticized and defends herself and being a delicate subject its hard to know how to react... I just can't talk to her about it.
True I may come across somewhat blunt and tactless, but that is because I want to let her know she can be honest about the topic. Unfortunately, whenever I bring it up I'm not be delicate enough to keep the conversation from getting heated. She, on the other hand, won't even address it as an issue.
The frequency is not fitting for a person with my drive. It wasn't always this way. The first six months were great, I was satisfied and grateful, but since then the rate has continually dropped, with a few rare good weeks.
When we began the relationship I made it clear to her about my appetite, I didn't try to in any way mislead her to believe that I would be content without release. I even warned her that I can be quite miserable if left without it. I also confessed that I abhorred women that would use intimacy as a means to ensnare a man, and then gradually lessen that which helped them lure the men. I had experience with women like that and felt it dishonest and malicious.
She insists that this deterioration is beyond her control and that it will get better later on when conditions improve, but it just keeps getting worse no matter what happens.
Is it that I no longer have that newness value? Did we start off too hot whereas all we could do was cool down? Will we ever be able to get back to how things were? All these questions might never be answered.
Minding the detriments of time I know that this vigor won't last forever, so why do I choose to squander this gift? Because you're in love stupid! But why does she get SO defensive if I ever even remotely try to broach this subject? Because she feels criticized and defends herself and being a delicate subject its hard to know how to react... I just can't talk to her about it.
True I may come across somewhat blunt and tactless, but that is because I want to let her know she can be honest about the topic. Unfortunately, whenever I bring it up I'm not be delicate enough to keep the conversation from getting heated. She, on the other hand, won't even address it as an issue.
The frequency is not fitting for a person with my drive. It wasn't always this way. The first six months were great, I was satisfied and grateful, but since then the rate has continually dropped, with a few rare good weeks.
When we began the relationship I made it clear to her about my appetite, I didn't try to in any way mislead her to believe that I would be content without release. I even warned her that I can be quite miserable if left without it. I also confessed that I abhorred women that would use intimacy as a means to ensnare a man, and then gradually lessen that which helped them lure the men. I had experience with women like that and felt it dishonest and malicious.
She insists that this deterioration is beyond her control and that it will get better later on when conditions improve, but it just keeps getting worse no matter what happens.
Is it that I no longer have that newness value? Did we start off too hot whereas all we could do was cool down? Will we ever be able to get back to how things were? All these questions might never be answered.
posted by T.S. Idiot at 12:33 PM
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