Friday, March 21, 2008

We've got a kinder, gentler machine-gun hand! - Neil Young


They string me to the gallows
Put a hood up over my face
And keep telling me
Soon I will leave this place


I'm sure that it would be annoying having everything in a constant state of perfection, but I'd bet that that imperfection of perfection would provide relief.


An ordinary man's good qualities could become crushing accusations against a guilty man. - Camus


According to him, human justice was nothing and divine justice was everything. I pointed out that it was the former that had condemned me. - Camus


Do you truly cherish these earthly things? - Camus


I opened myself to the gentle indifference of the world. Finding it so much like myself... I had only to wish that there be a large crowd of spectators the day of my execution and that they greet me with cries of hatred. - Camus


I have just finished The Stranger once again. This is the fourth reading and yet again I feel the lucid reflection of myself in Mersault. I have changed my life in so many ways, but my outlook on death has yet to diverge from Camus'. No matter how often I detect that delivate connection to all things and realize that death ends nothing, I still find myself tormented by the thought of it. I have no faith. None, not even in my senses, especially not in my rationalizations. I need to trust, but before I can I'd have to give up my struggle... That is not in my composition.
There are hundreds of thousands of people willing to depart with the established order. These people are frustrated, alienated or angry. There are so many problems with every single level of social institutions. The real upsetting thing to me about these problems is that they tend to center on policy. When the country dedicates almost half of it's revenues to national security, let corporations write legislation, appoint officials based upon their unwaivering adherence to party platform and maintaining a majority by lying and misleading idiots, one can't avoid being upset.

People yearn for change which won't come unless they band together. If even there were a small collective effort, the balance would be tilted away from deception. All they need is an opportunity.